Challenges every day

I have been in Idaho for two months now. It is a challenge pretty much every single day. I'm either having to deal with things related to the kids, Cherie or some kind of financial shenanigans. I suppose that comes with the territory, and that I should expect that, after nearly a year of having no responsibility living in California.

But it has been nearly all good. In fact, the bad isn't bad at all when you consider most of it is just life: getting two jobs, moving into a new place, getting acclimated, meeting people and adjusting to a life that has my children in it a lot of the time.

That has been the best part of all of this: that Isaac and Savannah are with me frequently. I would watch them at any time, day or night, as long as I was not working. I love watching them, taking them places, watching them play together, even sharing the same room with them, which they insist on doing, when we go to sleep. I don't mind. I love them all so very much.

As far as my relationship with Cherie goes, that to is a work in progress. It has not been easy, but I am determined to make it work, for the sake of the children. I must make it work. I have to, for my sanity and theirs. We have begun attending a parenting class together, and are working toward helping Isaac and Savannah get the most out of the class that they can. It feels awkward, though, to be there with Cherie. I wish our relationship was better. If it is going to get better, it will be up to me.

For now, I'm continuing to work to improve myself and the lives of my children. They truly are a blessing to me.