Something good every day?

Well, Thursday was pretty much euphoria for me. Oh, how I want it to continue. I have wanted something good to happen every day since. I realize that's not always possible.

I loved so much just talking with my stepdaughter. It made me feel SO GOOD inside. I know I hurt her a lot, and she's probably very confused inside. I wish, though, that she could see that I really do love her. I hope to show her every time we speak.

Tomorrow is Sunday, and I am very grateful for that day. It means I get to fast. And I will fast, because for whatever reason, I can feel good things about to happen. I don't want to jinx this, but I have to think that praying to Heavenly Father and being faithful will help me. It certainly can't do anything but good things.

I was talking to a friend of mine whom I've reconnected with online recently. He is a former member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. I guess I should say he is an inactive member of the church. Jon and I have had numerous conversations online over the past few weeks, and I have to respect his beliefs.

However, he told me that I might be angry at the Lord if what I wanted to happen did not happen. How could I ever be angry with the Lord? I have to respect Jon, because his faith is his own, and I do not think it fair to speak ill of his choices. But being angry at the Lord? Why would I ever be angry at the Lord? I may never get exactly what I want: my family back, but I can't fault Him for not making it so. So much of what I do depends on me as well as my faith. I like to think of the Lord as someone who can, if it be His will, push us over the hump. If I'm being cross with my family, for example, and wanting Him to help me, well, then I have to look at myself to ensure that I'm doing the right things so that He can be in a position to help me.

I think the saying is, "If the student is ready, the teacher will appear."
For the longest time, the student (me) was not ready, and thus, the teacher did not appear. Well, I have been ready for quite some time, and He has been there to help me. I tell others that I have not been as good to my family as I should be, and they scoff at me, as if I've done everything right. If I had done everything right, wouldn't my family be here with me? It's been a long time since I've consistently done things right, so my family isn't here. It has to be doing good over a long period of time -- a long, sustained period. If it be His will, they will come back. But I have to make the effort, every single day. I cannot let one day go and not do something positive.

I am just fortunate that I will fast tomorrow, and perhaps the good that will come out of that day will be that I am doing something for myself, and for others, in the long run.

I sure would like to talk to Destiny again, though. I do love you.