Just curious

For months now, I've been curious about a specific question. There have been times when I've gone a week, maybe even two weeks or longer, where I haven't called to ask to speak to the kids. For this reason alone, I sometimes feel guilty about that. After all, it wasn't their choice to be taken from me. They shouldn't have to miss out on talking to me because of it. But there's something I've always wondered. Why doesn't Cherie ever have the kids call me to talk to them? I mean, we may not be together, but again, why should the children suffer because of this? Like I said, I've been guilty of going weeks without talking to them or calling them. I've not been proud of it, either. I was explaining to their grandma that listening to the dumb ring-back tone on Cherie's phone, combined with her alleged boyfriend's voice telling callers "bye-bye now" in a sing-song voice makes me cringe. But that reason alone shouldn't be a reason for me not to call, right? Of course not. Suffice it to say, I wish she would realize that in addition to me being a sort of well-established gravy train for her, that I also am the father of those children, and I am someone who loves them and wants to be with them. There's not much she has to understand here, The simple fact that I am Isaac and Savannah's father should be enough for her to understand that I want to communicate with them on a regular basis. Countless parents get this, I'm sure, even ones with axes to grind. I don't have an ax to grind. I just have love. That's all. And I want to be able to give it to my children. It has nothing to do with being with Cherie or not, and everything to do with wanting to show my children I love them. It's harder for them to understand why they can't talk to me than it is for me to understand why Cherie doesn't see that as a priority. I'm just curious as to why she can't figure that out.