A new and most wonderful place

I am not even sure where to begin. The loyal readers of this blog, all two of you, I don't know what to say.

How do you describe pure happiness? Joy? An incredible connection? Euphoria?

I can't believe I'm writing these things, much less feeling them. They were feelings once thought inaccessible to me.

Short of being with my children in September, this week has been the greatest in my life for a long, long time. I feel guilty being so happy. But why? Aren't we allowed to be happy? Isn't that what Heavenly Father wants for us? To be happy?

Danielle has got me thinking about so many things. Going to the temple. Improving myself physically. Following my temple recommend and furthering my education. I mean, she's so KNOWLEDGEABLE about what she does, it motivates me. To see her eyes light up when she describes what she's learning is infectious. It makes me happy for her. And shows me that I can do it, too.

I want to do these things for myself, of course, but also for her, and for my children. I get the sense that my kids would LOVE Danielle. I just sense that she "gets" it as a mom, having two children of her own. Maybe the time will come. Who knows.

For now, I want to focus on improving myself. I have a lot of work to do, in so many areas. I am certain that Heavenly Father will help me along...as He has so many times before, even when I forgot to ask.

But I must say that I have never felt this loved by anyone before. I can only hope to repay the debt that I owe.